Times of Uncertainty Can Make Us Feel Crazy!

I'm sharing some of my journal musings with you today. Don't worry, I won't share the stuff that would make you think I'm completely whacked! :)

I’ve been dealing with uncertainty in my life lately, perhaps you have been too. I’m hoping this gives you food for thought & encouragement.

“I’ve heard the saying so often, life is about the journey not the destination. Honestly, I get really sick of that concept, especially when I am feeling like I’m am right now. Feeling uncertain and wanting to know answers and the outcome of so many areas in my life. When I get in this kind of funk, I forget about the journey. I get completely focused on the destination. How important that part is to remember. Being present, there it is again!

As I think about this deeper, what I want to accomplish, or where I want to arrive, where I am feeling led by God, is in part what gives me excitement and drive to keep going in the midst of the uncertainty! 

The unknowns are what make me crazy, but also keeps the mystery of life and of God alive. The unknowns are the future, not the present. The unknowns are what gives me the need to keep going, moving forward in life. 

If I had it all neatly laid out before me, tied up in a pretty bow; if I knew for certain how it all would look in the end, would I get bored?  Knowing myself as I do, I would say yes indeed I would get bored. 

Would I work as hard to attain it if I knew exactly how it was going to happen? If I didn’t have to trust or believe in anything outside of myself? I’m thinking yes, I would totally give up, because I don’t have that kind of strength in and of myself. Thank God He gives me the ability keep trusting and believing…”

I believe in all that has never yet been spoken.

I want to free what waits within me

so that what no one has dared to wish for

may for once spring clear

without my contriving.

If this is arrogant, God, forgive me,

but this is what I need to say.

May what I do flow from me like a river,

no forcing and no holding back,

the way it is with children.

Then in these swelling and ebbing currents,

These deepening tides moving out, returning,

I will sing you as no one ever has,

Streaming through widening channels

into the open sea.

Rainer Marie Rilke

Till next time...
Peace,
Pam