What is Your Life All About?
It all began in June 2010. Nothing extraordinary had happened, just every day life activities and stress that left me feeling burned out mentally, spiritually and physically.
The thought, “what in the world is my life really all about,” invaded my mind and my spirit. It was like the sea, its waves crashing in upon my mind, then a bit of a calm before it crashed in again.
Have you ever had this thought or felt this way?
I’ve had this thought many times throughout my life’s journey, but never to this degree. For whatever reason, this time it took me off guard and brought me to my knees. Burnout can do that to us. I really didn’t know what to do with it. I felt powerless, especially because to do what I have historically done felt futile.
The past had always consisted of Doing something. This time it wasn’t about coming up with a bunch of action steps, or a 5 step strategy. It wasn’t about setting up a structure, setting goals or planning. It wasn’t about joining more small groups, following the rules or going to church more.
This time, deep down I knew this was altogether different.
The difference was this was a Spiritual lesson, a lesson in Being, instead of Doing. I’ve had glimpses of this in the past, but this time it was like being hit up side the head with a 2×4. But that’s how I roll, always learning the hard way. :)
It was about waiting, listening to my Spirit, facing fears, trusting, and being REALLY uncomfortable in it all. Connecting my head to my heart. In addition, trying to figure out how to live and navigate every day life and all of its stresses in the midst of it all. Simply put, trying to find peace in the midst of chaos.
“To be fully alive, fully human, and completely awake is to be continually thrown out of the nest.”
― Pema Chodron
It’s not like I could run off to the closest monastery and spend months on end in quiet contemplation – even though I seriously thought about it.
The more I tried to push past or go around this uncomfortable feeling, the more burned out and discouraged I got. Thank God, He did not give up. He needed me to begin this journey.
So, I took a deep breath and began. I began this wild, beautiful, totally uncomfortable journey in Being.
After awhile I noticed the stirring in my soul. My spirit was feeling refilled. I was no longer so burned out and discouraged. I was feeling the peace in the midst of chaos.
I heard Gods’ quiet words, “Wait on Me, Trust Me, Surrender your Fears, Stay in the Present, Don’t Worry, Be content in the Discontentment.
I didn’t hear these words all at once mind you, but just the right word for what I needed for that day, that situation, that moment.
So there you go, a snippet of my story.
What about you my friend? What is your story?
Can you relate to feeling burned out mentally, spiritually and physically?
Have you lost your way and feel like you don’t know what your life is about anymore?
You are not alone my friend and there is hope! The first step is to recognize where you are and consider the possibility that you are right where you need to be. Maybe, just maybe your new path is inviting you to step onto it and begin a new adventure. This could be your time to make a shift in your life and stop doing the same things over and over again and expecting different results.
Are you wondering how to start that adventure? Below are some tips to get you started…
Take some time to journal about where you are. If you are a list person, then make a list of what’s working and what’s not working for you.
Write about the specific areas in which you feel burned out and how they affect your mental, spiritual and physical health.
Make a list of all the things that you are involved in that fall under the “Doing Category.” Make a list of what your life might would look like if you had more “Being Categories” in your life. What does this list tell you? What emotions does it bring up for you? Excitement, hope, fear, discouragement…??